The only problem with this appreciation is that I tend to compare... and based on comparison I start to limit my own abilities. I feel myself recoil. I consciously begin to hold back because of my own feelings of inferiority. No bully broke my spirit it was self enforced.
I want to appreciate a luminous quality in someone else without acknowledging my own short comings. As any good parent, friend, spouse will remind you “we’re all good after different things”, uh huh I agree and I’m not discounting them but when desire results negating myself it’s worrisome.
Honestly if you look for those bad habits they're easy to spot. I see it a lot where I work. Somewhere along the line people were either told or of their own accord decided that their smile wasn't great. They cover it with their hands, adjust the way they speak to keep their smile hidden... It becomes second nature and even after restoration they are still using the same tactics. It's actually really sad to witness.
Be careful
how you are talking to yourself
because you
are listening. -Lisa M. Hayes
I saw this quote the other day and it clicked. It made me feel happy because obviously people relate but a little sad knowing that I'm very guilty of putting myself down. I need to keep this in mind because the things I say about myself or think or feel aren't right and more importantly they aren't true.
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