I briefly touched on this the other day... My dire effort to be fluid and just role with things. It's so hard, people. This is just one of many regards this is another way my husband and I are polar opposites. Its' part control; part anxiety; and part social disorder. Not only do I feel an intense need to be physically prepared there's a mental component as well. When he burst in with a last minute plans I hit freakout mode. Not good.
Well, i'm getting better. The other day he needed to drive out to get something and wanted me to join. Great, quality time, right? Wrong. I hadn't had time to process it. I didn't want to be in the car for 4 hours there and back and it was already late. What about my plans? After I wrestled with all my misgivings I decided to go. Apart from everything it felt like the right choice even though not entirely desirable.
Half an hour in we hit major traffic. I felt doomed. But wasn't. He pulled off the highway and wehad an incredible sushi dinner, walked around Target, stopped for ice cream and just talked and talked and talked.
It worked out... and better than I could have imagined and more importantly, could have "planned". I let go of my issues and wants (if even just for a night) and gave into someone/something else. It felt amazing too. Not just cause things worked out in my favor but because I was putting someone else in front of me even though it was hard for me to be spontaneous. The next night we decided to attempt the trip again and though it was a long trip it was just as enjoyable as the night before and a lot easier to agree to.
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