true engineering

Two unlikely events meshed together to unleash a truth. It started with a patient and followed with a kind word from a friend to yield an eye-opening assurance. My foundation is being repaired so that it’ll allow for more to come and maybe even other directions in my future.

A patient was talking about the current highway revamp that happens to run along my route from home to work. He’s been working on it for months and it will continue for several more months. I didn’t bother burdening him with the reasons I’ve been annoyed by the project. I did however decide to be polite and talk about other matters in the highway expansion. I knew that they’re adding a lane but I had no idea why they needed to destroy miles of perfectly good road leading up to the addition. It just seemed like an extra cost and headache for everyone. He explained that it was necessary. The foundation needed to be phased into the new stretch of road so that people could transport smoothly and the integrity of the new and the old pavement could withstand the changes. They also had plans to build a bridge up ahead and these measures were imperative so that the structure would hold without collapse.

The next day a friend commented that this season of my life it beautiful to watch. Though stretching and hurting, I was being reshaped. When I was young there was a boy about the same age as me and I heard his mom talking about how he was in pain every night and she had to medicate him regularly. Turns out the cause was growing pains. I thought it was incredibly odd because I’d never felt anything like it. Later on in life I’d realize some people don’t experience them and I had been one of them…until now.

Mine isn’t a physical impairment but it has been uncomfortable. I truly believe that the base of who I am is being uprooted and preparing me for more. More of what, I’m not sure. Probably good, maybe some bad. I’m not sure if it’s being remodeled to carry heavier loads or to change my course. Possibly both. However I do know it’s being done with love and my best interest in mind. Sometimes a diagnosis is all you need to feel better about what’s happening inside.