au natural

Consider this an addendum.  I hate to blame society for my insecurities but there is something of a problem with the idea of natural verses oh, well… not. We work so hard to make the manufactured parts of our lives seem natural. We make purchases and watch tutorials to make our makeup appear like natural beauty.  We put on facades and brush off hours of work and effort to seem like nothing. We fight to seem effortless and natural in both our physical appearance and daily life, despite the imperfections and messy bits in both.  I doubt any of us, if so very few, have that au natural factor and state of affairs that we strive to pretend exists.

Why? Probably because it seems carefree. Maybe because it’s ideal. I’m sure we each have our reasons. I despise the feeling of inferiority. I want to be desirable. Envy can be enjoyable if you’re on the other end of it.

So all this comes to mind when we talk about the very essence of womanhood. As a woman I am expected to bare children. Motherhood is essential and there are so many alternatives these days but does anyone else feel the push that the “old-fashion” way is the best? A private matter. Just a husband and a wife. No additional medications. No fancy doctors.  No extra appointments and test.

I knew it wouldn’t be easy, I really did. I listened to friends discus breastfeeding vs. formula, natural birth vs. cesarean and so many opposing ideas. Well my path doesn’t seem optional. I'll put aside my reservations and if it takes prescriptions and procedures then we’ve decided we’re willing.