First off, I'm a rule breaker. Bloggin'n on the weekend and all. Tisk, tisk. Figured it would be good to sit down and type since I've been a bit absentminded. Mostly I've been preoccupied. I spent the better part of the week anxiously anticipating an opportunity, and the rest being mad at myself for not capitalizing on it.
It was a job interview and I'm not ready to talk about it. I know, so dramatic. Anyway, it got me prepping for all the dreaded questions, one of the most over analyzed being, "what is your greatest weakness." I know the right answer, textbook approved, that puts a positive spin on an otherwise trick question. But in my head, and heart, the true answer isn't what I talk about.
The truth. Self criticism. Currently it's at an endless flow. It doesn't take a lot either. A simple error in judgment or honest mistake and I'm completely disabled. My brain is restless and on continuous repeat. My body sick with frustration. I'm an understanding person, at least I feel that I am , but forgiving myself and moving on is so difficult.
I need sleep. I need a simple train of thought to flow without the sting of disappointment overshadowing my routine. I need a reminder. A hope. An accolade. A laugh. And maybe even a second chance. I need to keep moving and remember being needy sometimes is alright, and so are mistakes.
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