re-repost

Does this happen to other people? I experience more issues related to redundancy than to actual writers block. Did I say that already? Have I used that: title, phrase, or topic before? It has actually kept me from posting a time or two. It goes back to that concern of what people think. A completely overrated-toxic- fact of life by the way…at least in mine.

I get frustrated with my personal level of concern for it. I figure if I throw this out now people will be reminded of my imperfectness and I’ll be granted pre-forgiveness. If that’s even a thing. As complex as I am as a person, I am also terribly predictable in some ways. I leap from emotion to emotion. Certain situations plague me continually. My sense of humor is steadfast. The same things that have always made me laugh and cry still do…My emotions aren't like taste buds.

We have favorite shirts and movies and fears that repeat throughout seasons or even a lifetime so obviously my inner thoughts and sharing might have a very French de-javu-y or plain old “she already said that” vibe. (I don’t know if anybody else caught my Sleepless in Seattle reference but now I need to watch it.)

I write what I think. And on that note, I write how I think. Bad grammar, poor punctuation. Guilty. Awhile ago I'd be mortified at the errors and go the extra mile to double check my "work". But it's not work and I'm not participating in a grading system or even originality contest. I'm learning the more I give into the point and the less I dwell on the "correctness" the more opportunity I have to be honest about myself.

This isn't coming off apologetic and it’s not supposed to. This is just a heads up that all my thoughts and feelings are original at the time. These aren't pre-written, manufactured posts. They’re current and personal and maybe seem recycled but still me. 

Phew, now that I said that I can start writing all that stuff you probably already know about. Just kidding…maybe.