something unexpectedly expected

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Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary. -Steve Jobs
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We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give. -Sir Winston Churchill
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Do the best you can until you know better. Then when you know better, do better. -Maya Angelou
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Some very wise words from accomplished visionaries. I feel hope and guidance with quotes like this. For too long, work was claiming too much from me. Time. Emotion. Plans. My Future. The demands were headed toward a breaking point. C'mon, we all saw it coming, right?

Well last week without warning but not surprise I put in my notice. I know people say don't make major decisions based on emotion but it is emotional. Right after it happened I bawled like a baby in the bathroom. Once I recovered I realized I was crying from relief. Exhaustion from holding it together for so long had released.

I don't have a plan. Lord, I wish I did. I should have been better prepared but what I thought was endurance was lack of courage to walk away... from money. All the new fear from letting go of the old fear is forming. Because sometimes that happens. When something is removed the void is filled. Obvioulsy new fear(s) fits so perfectly in old fear(s) place. It' my job to revoke that invitation and quickly build the things I want in this space.

I'll be done here in a week or so and I can honestly say I'm at peace about the actual decsion. It's been nothing but reaffirming. The other stuff is the source of worry. I'm franitcally sending out applications to start a new postion that maybe just maybe holds some promise. I'm ready to be a better person, wife, friend etc...and not be so captive and directed by the abuse I've been subjected too.

And of all the quotes this is by far my favorite.