Before I left town I got a raise. A rather large one at that. Try not to hate me for not been overzealous. I certainly wasn’t surprised because lately I’ve had a hard time hiding my unhappiness and as certain people tend to do he threw money at the problem as a means of fixing it.
I’m not ashamed to say I deserved that raise. I worked hard for it and know I earned it but it was presented to me as a sort of gift, something I was supposed to praise him for and frankly that’s not the case. I’ve worked for a number of people that are millionaires.Really. Flat out excessive incomes that have been earned through work ethic and skill and because of their behavior and rapidly growing practices have no time for turnover so they buy silence and time, literally with money.
I’m at a standoff. The number one question is: Am I going to continue working here? No, not if I have anything to do with it. Yes, it does make it a little easy to wait to I find the right fit. So I am grateful for the consolation and an opportunity to take extra time in making my decision(s). At the same time I’m upset. I am fully aware of what’s happening and I feel more trapped than I did before.
I might be vilified or judge in a way for honestly discussing it but it’s all sincere and if you knew all the details and day to day you’d know that this is no way to live. I am however ready to put this ”extra” income to good use and continue to lay a foundation so that when the time is right I can walk away from this situation and move on to something better for me and my family.
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