downhill from here

As of tomorrow he will have been away for two weeks. Its times like these I’m actually thankful for a stressful job because it keeps me busy. Not sure if things are really as hectic as they seem or it’s just situational. We've had multiple snow storms here and bounce from spectacle weather to borderline blizzards. One of our dogs had to be hospitalized a couple days ago, it broke my heart and it broke the bank. All joking aside the incident brought on a multitude of emotions.

First and foremost it reminded me I’m missing something….Sure I’m capable on my own but that’s not how it’s meant to be. I have a teammate to help me and interact with; I don’t want to make tough decisions alone. We have a good ying and yang and without that other side to balance me out I was yang-ing all over the place.  

Secondly, my motherly instinct went into maximum overdrive. I knew something was wrong immediately and my world stopped... Everything was suspended until I could find a way to make him better. He couldn't eat, neither could I. He couldn't sleep, neither could I. We had a tough couple days and the next few weeks are still unknown. It reminded me. It reminded me I’m built for so much more. I need to care for something and not just my canine, fur babies. 

For some reason or other, I think the second half of the time will be harder. At some point I’m bound to run out of distractions and the time will take its toll. Certain questions will remain unanswered and desired plans must remain on hold. Thanks for all the kind words, concern and prayers.